1 post tagged “exasperation”

Yeah I already wrote an entry today. But apparently I have more to say.

I just finished reading/editing the diner sex scene. Actually, I'm past that scene itself. I talked earlier w/ Erin about how, with the exception of maybe the last two of them, I don't find the sex scenes very sexy at all. I think they're kind of sad. Clinically they're probably pretty sexy... anyway, Erin said, "Well, of course they were (sad) and frequently disturbing."

When I was reading this scene, I was in H's room kind of hanging out while he went down for a nap. He's still awake in there but Z came up to find me and if he'd seen her, all hope would hev been lost. Anyway, I came down here and got a drink and stuff & I just felt very sad for Seth (a residual reaction from my reading). My heart broke for him and this was after the "successful" sex. That last thing I would want right now (well one of the last things) would be to play out that scene or anything remotely like it IRL. What I wrote worked for me in the way I want it to work for others. Apparently it worked the same way for Erin.

I guess what it all comes down to is: is my Ideal Reader really my ideal reader? I don't think so. I think the most I can expect is to entertain him. My Ideal Readers are the ones who get it w/o me having to explain every little thing.

Oh and I asked him why he won't read WS. He says, "I'll read it. I thought you wanted me to read the other one first." I said that I did. He said, "I just didn't want to read it last night." I said, "I didn't even say anything last night. Every time I mention it, you say you won't read it." Then there was a prolonged sigh and "I guess I'll read it." Gee. Thanks.